Kaede Xav

Whee!

2009-10-23T16:19:00.001+08:00

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watever :)

Whats real and wats not

2009-10-21T00:26:00.003+08:00

its just the 2nd day of school
and politics are flying around like mad
dreading school
dragging my feet to school everyday
stupid dramas and politics
its so dumb
lifeless.

whats the TRUTH?
he said, she said, we said, they said.
its never ending
who can i trust?
noone
because noone is reliable
im just gng to be invisible and do my own stuff
its so stupid to be involved in all these shit ass things.

watever.

i find myself being drag into all these shits in my whole life
my problems are rising agn.

i wana fly back to beijing.

What is love exactly?

2009-10-20T01:22:00.001+08:00

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, ‘What does love mean?’ The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
___________________________________________

‘When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore.
So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.’

Rebecca- age 8
________________________________________

‘When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.’

Billy - age 4
________________________________________

‘Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.’

Karl - age 5
________________________________________

‘Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.’

Chrissy - age 6
________________________________________

‘Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.’

Terri - age 4
________________________________________

‘Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.’

Danny - age 7
________________________________________

‘Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.
My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss’

Emily - age 8
________________________________________

‘Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.’

Bobby - age 7
________________________________________

‘If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,’

Nikka - age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka’s on this planet)
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‘Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.’

Noelle - age 7
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‘Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.’

Tommy - age 6
________________________________________

‘During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.

He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.’

Cindy - age 8
_______________________________________

‘My mommy loves me more than anybody
You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.’

Clare - age 6
________________________________________

‘Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.’

Elaine-age 5
________________________________________

‘Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.’

Chris - age 7
________________________________________

‘Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.’

Mary Ann - age 4
________________________________________

‘I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.’

Lauren - age 4
________________________________________

‘When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.’

Karen - age 7
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‘Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn’t think it’s gross.’

Mark - age 6
________________________________________

‘You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.’

Jessica - age 8

what do you think?

FUNNY!

2009-10-19T23:35:00.001+08:00

zhehao says: (11:33:06 PM)
OH YA
zhehao says: (11:33:08 PM)
I RMBED
zhehao says: (11:33:08 PM)
SMRT
zhehao says: (11:33:09 PM)
I SAID
zhehao says: (11:33:16 PM)
SEE MY RED TITS
zhehao says: (11:33:18 PM)
LOLOLOLOLOL
zhehao says: (11:33:34 PM)
damn random and no link
zhehao says: (11:33:38 PM)
and retarded

I LIKE IT~~
LMAO
IT MADE ME LAUGHED FOR A WHOLE 2 MINS.

One Night in Beijing;

2009-10-18T14:38:00.006+08:00

bibi and pipi
she damn happy i bought so many things for her.

fifi and bibi
LOL retard

mimi and pipi.
ps: mimi got my smell alr!!! :D

fifi and bibi!

I got 21 nights in Beijing!
IM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUPER HAPPY TO BE BACK.
I HAD ENOUGH OF THE LOUSY FOOD, MEAN PEOPLE, DIRTY AIR POLLUTION, SCARY TRAFFIC.
BUT I MISS THE COLD WEATHER, GOOD SHOPPING AND AWESOME TIME WIV FRIENDS :)
SINGAPORE AIRLINE FOOD NICE ONLY
I GOT SUPER MANY THINGS TO BLOG, BUT IM DAMN LAZY.
22 DAYS WORTH OF MEMORIES, ABOUT 600 PLUS PHOTOS.
I CANT SAY THAT I DIN ENJOY MYSELF AT ALL.
I DID, BUT SOMETIMES THERE WILL ALWAYS BE CONFLICTS.
i bought super many things la seriously.
my lugguage go that time 1 only.
come back got 4?? LOL
i got 4 soft toys!!
ME LIKE. hehe, its called mimi, fifi, bibi, pipi!
HAHA cute only :)
OHOHOH BIG NEWS
IM ADDICTED TO SMELLY TOFU
NICE TO THE MAX I TELL U.
IT REALLY ROCKS.
HAHAHA U ALL SHUD TRY. I GOT MANY VIDEOS AND PHOTOS ABOUT IT.
HEHEHE, I WILL UPLOAD ONCE IM NOT LAZY.
oh oh oh the ppl there always assume that we'r from korean/thailand. SIAN.
then i'm always korean/guangzhou, cos they say fair and skinny.
doesnt make sense leh, not everyone frm there are fair and skinny. LOL

i miss everyone!

Lets play a Lovegame;

2009-09-25T17:02:00.002+08:00

YAY! good things come in a row man
my nail polish arrived ^ ^
my parents went to henderson rd to buy my favorite yam paste mooncake
whoo!

sigh
another 12 hrs i will be at the airport
another 24 hrs i will be at beijing university
so fast fast fast!
and i think the 22 days will pass quite quickly for me, cos i have lessons almost everyday and i wana do shopping too so ya u know, busy.
lol
wah shit MY LUGGAGE DAMN HEAVY
i cfm no strength carry it down the belt =.=
:S:S:S
i have so many things to bring sia
sian
this will be my last post before i leave!!!
HAHAHA everyone, this is the last reminder :
departure,
SQ 802, SIA CHECK IN COUNTER, TERMINAL 3 AT 630AM!
flight at 840am

arrival,
SQ 805, IDK WHICH TERMINAL, SHUD BE 3 ALSO, U CHECK BEFORE U GO AIRPORT AH!
17 OCT, 1015pm, arrived in singapore.

heeeheee, im gone :)
DONT MISS ME TOO MUCH PEOPLE
AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR HEALTH!
Ps: i will miss my bed and lappy :S

<33

XOXO,
MELODY

Polaroid, memories stay.

2009-09-25T01:04:00.003+08:00

esther! i like ur polaroid. THANKS FOR BRINGING & SHARING!
AND THANKS FOR UR OLD WIFE'S BISCUITS! :D
IM BRINGING THIS PHOTO WITH ME TO BEIJING!

IM SO GONA BRING THIS PHOTO TO BEIJING.
LOL
I WILL MISS U JIE ^ ^

THIS PHOTO MUST BE IN MY WALLET!
I MISS AND LOVE ALL OF U BABES :)

HEHE, DISNEY SO CUTE RIGHT!

today im damn happy
hahaha
i got my mia-for-8months-present frm regina and simin alr
hahaha!!
then i got old wife's biscuits from esther,she bought it frm hong kong
then we managed to eat steamboat
we played games at starbucks
DAMN FUNNY!!!
and fun ^ ^

we took Polaroid!!!
like esther bought it frm hong kong
we played wiv it
im gona scan it soon
HEHE FUN.
although bella has school tmr, simin has work til sunday, and the rest can choose to slp in the wee hours in the morning.....but
they will be tonning at the airport til sat morning jus to send me off
I AM SUPER TOUCHED
WHOO!
:D

RMB

2009-09-24T15:49:00.003+08:00

wahlau
i was tricked by my parents
WTF CAN
they damn bully me, i cannot take it alr.
LOL
they took a wad of RMB to me
then i counted
nabeh, like 250 sing dollars only
then so lil u know!!!
then i was like errr, for 22 days u give me like that?
HAHA
then my dad say, huh not enough meh, i think enough la, nt enough i change somemore, how much u want?
then i pekcek alr!!!! cos today my period came btw, so im abit cranky.
i jus said "nvm la, nvm. suan le"
HAHAHA
then nehbeh, i was sooooooooooooo angry
hahaha, i look at the com and stone
then my dad gave me another wad of cash
he said " ur mummy ask me to lie to u one hor, not me."
WTF SO LAME?
they jus wana test my reaction -.-
lucky i nvr flare up
HENG !

yay, i have money liao.
like woah, change to RMB i like some rich kid.
but actly, no la. HAHAHA

fuck my right eye. its swollen after like some itching.
ahhhhhhhhhhh :/ my eyelid looks cool.

ITS DESTINED.

2009-09-23T16:33:00.003+08:00

Remember Lee Min Ho was coming to Singapore for Etude HouseION Orchard outlet official opening? Well, Minho’s trip to Singapore on 10th Octoberhas been delayed.

But the good news is that Lee Min Ho will still be in Singapore two weeks later instead, on24th October for a 2D1N promotional trip. No further details were made available again but the new date will be ideal for those who couldn’t find time earlier to chase him around Singapore and bad luck unfortunately for those who have already made plans earlier.

For those who can’t wait to see Lee Minho in Singapore, spend a minimum of $10 at any Etude House outlet (Plaza Singapura, ION Orchard) in Singapore to redeem a poster of him, whilst stocks last!

credit to boys-before-flowers

HAHAHA IM FUCKING LAUGHING LIKE SHIT

SEEE, ITS GOD'S WILL TO LET ME MEET HIM MYSELF.

WAHAHAAHAHAHAH, WAIT TIL IM BACK FROM BEIJING.

XOXO,

MELODY

sexcited!

2009-09-23T15:26:00.002+08:00

IM LEAVING IN 3 MORE DAYS.
okay la sat morning, is like actly 2 more days.
hahahahahaha, IM EXCITED.
okay~~ i got my partner for my accomodation in china liaozz
hehe, lucky is in my group ^ ^
cannot take it alr, im alr almost done wiv my packing.
i wun be bringing my laptop alr la.
my friend not bringing alr.
hahahahaha, we gng internet cafe tgt!
so i wun be blogging so often.
i think like 1 week once or twice only.

I SHALL BLOG MORE WHEN ITS FRIDAY
hahahaha, i must prepare for my cousins' outing liaoz.
BYE!

5 days!

2009-09-20T20:22:00.003+08:00

5 MORE DAYYYYYYSSSS
scared
lolol
im like 98% done wiv my shopping
started to pack my stuff just now
crazy sia
i realised its A LOT of things to bring
i wonder whether my 29 inch luggage can fit everything
im not bringing my lappy!!!!
ahhhh, i will miss the cyber world
omg -.-
I SCAREDDDDDD
i want mummy!!! i want my bed!!! i wan clean toilets!!!!
hhahaha, okay shut up.

today damn tiring
traveled 3 places in 7 hours to get everything i need for my trip
yawnz, im freaking tired.
& hungry!

reminiscence

2009-09-19T01:25:00.001+08:00

So in the end i did not cut my hair YET.
im kinda living a lifestyle of a vampire
hahahaha
i think im looking paler and paler day by day
regina commented "why you look so pale?"
ask the vampire ^ ^
hahahaha
cannot take it.
i wana change back my lifestyle alr
i can feel myself getting sick
i woke up at 2 when we were suppose to meet at 2
LOL
okay so i bathed and got ready, was at town by 350pm
lol!
went to eat and we talked
reg left at 5pm!!!!! so fast
then left wiv min val and me :)
okay we walked around, nothing to do but we kept talking
then we decided to watch a movie!
luckily there are nice movies
we caught THE UGLY TRUTH at cine
BEST.
damn good the movie, everyone AGED 16 AND ABOVE shud catch it.
many pun intended, like sexual ones. nice :)
okay by the time it ended it was like gng to 9 pm
we decided to head over to val's house!
its.been.gazillion.years.since.i.went.to.her.homey
lol, the feeling is nice, like u are catching back old times you know.
i like the feeling.
haha so does min! :D
reached home at 12.25am and im beat
i shall pop some pills and head to bed
NIGHTS!

edited:
i was hungry and i took a bowl of rice and dishes which my mum whipped up for dinner
YUMYUMYUM
super nice, love mum's cooking foreverrrr ^ ^
fyi, i ate at 9 plus just now. HAHA
my stomach gt worm.

RANDOM

2009-09-18T02:09:00.004+08:00

OMGGGGGGG
WTF CAN
FABIAN
THE FACE
LIKE
SAI

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHA
ACTLY I GOT OTHER THINGS TO POST
BUT SOMEONE DUN ALLOW ME TO POST
AWWWZ
ITS INTERESTING NEWS.
LOLOLOLOL

9 more days people

2009-09-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

WHOOO
im halfway done through my buying list for beijing trip
hehehohohaahha
ITS LIKE 9 MORE DAYS AND BYEEEE U WUN SEE ME FOR 22 DAYS :S:S:S
my teacher emailed us saying that we may be gng to chengde and inner mongolia
cool leh, like exposed to more places
i rly cannot wait liao
DAMN EXCITED
hahahahhaa
i have alr made a list of who im gng to buy gifts for :)

today went to town with bella!
she damn zai, nvr rly slp ytd night cos we were chatting online
then she went to sch at like 6plus?!!?
till like 7 in the night she met me, then we went fep to shop
i bought my bag!
and then we went over to ION
bought books and stationery
hehe, she cant find her suitable bag nor wallet
cannot take it, she damn funny and cute
she keep saying abt some topic which i find it v funny!!! becos its coming from her.
okay tmr is another outing day! I NEED TO CUT MY HAIR TMR
its been 5 months since i last touched it
okay dont laugh ,ppl busy like what siollllll
and tmr im gng out wiv mama and sis!
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
i think im bringin my laptop to beijing since clar and sherraine bringing
HEHEHOHOHAAHHA :)

for the 1st time,

2009-09-17T03:32:00.003+08:00

im really bored at home
B-O-R-E-D
super duper.
omg like NTH TO DO!
im like watching mtv, gossip girls, 100% entertainment the whole freaking day
its like SIAN TO THE MAX
like noone is free to go out!!!!
ahh ahhh ahhhhhh
tmr gng town wiv bella, but at night.
friday gng town agn wiv regina and my sis i guess
maybe if tmr i got my things then change the location :)
I DUN WANA STAY AT HOME!!
b-o-r-i-n-g
i dun wana get a job yet bcos im gng beijing
sigh, now i cant wait to leave, its so boring in here
what else can i do?
this is my 1st time i feel bored staying at home during the holidays.
SIGH

BELLA ITS 3:35 AM NOW
PLEASE SLEEP.
LOLOL

Unity! me like :)

2009-09-15T22:01:00.004+08:00

CHALET WAS GOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDD!
i like the food, music, people,games, fun, laughter!
it feels so damn fast, like we plan for so long then it jus ended like that!
for the 1st very time, the guys and girls are like united!!!

becos we organised games, then everyone had to join in.
and i purposely separate the guys and girls, which means they have to sit girl-guy-girl-guy kind of pattern.
hehehohohaahhaa!
I NEARLY GAVE UP explaining the different games to 22 other people, nearly died.
they chose to play hide-and-seek around the chalet!
but the stupid security damn assshole.
so we jus played 1 game -.- but it was fun :P
hahahaha!
then we played murderer and detective, like 23 people siting in a cramp room of pasir ris chalet.
SUPER FUNNY. BUT FUN!!
shud have took photo of it, but audrey wasnt there yet.
she was the only one wiv the camera.
HAHA!
so many things happened throughout the night, i dun rly know how to explain.
i remembered was all the guys took all the beds and even cupboard?!!?!?
then the girls slept ON THE FLOOR. lol, but i didnt sleep in the end.
we packed and left at 10am!
i slept frm 11am to 9pm
HAHA, sleep deprivedddddd.

i cant belive that the night just disappeared so quickly, like not enough fun.
another chalet, next vacation. DAMN LONGZZZZ.
i love all my close friends <3
thanks to : audrey, esther, simin, isabella, valissa, lanny, regina, huitze, eddie, kenneth, munsyi, junda, joonkai, lijie, zhehao, ben, nicholas, otto, zane, my sis, fabian, jiahao for coming to our chalet!!
hope all of you have fun last night!!! :D
you guys have a special place in my heart ^ ^

random note:
i suddenly feel so free, like nothing to do.
because for the past 2 weeks of holidays i have been busy with my temple stuff and the chalet, now that both events have ended, i suddenly feel so empty? like nth to look forward to.
i dont like this feeling at all.
esther is leaving for hongkong on thurs,
simin has work on most days,
bella has school,
liyi not in singapore,
claudia busy with projs and other stuff,
cousins busy with prelims or N lvls or work,
my sis occupied with bike practice and work,
mum busy with household things or out with dad usually,
jennifer not in singapore,
idk what to say alr.
lol, but there are some friends left, like
fabian jiahao audrey val eddie ken the 2e5 guys blablabla
idk the feeling is so weird!!!
why am i not busy?
lol, i wana go work alr. dun need to fret about doing nothing.
wait til i come back frm beijing.
another 12 more days and im leaving.
actly, i dun feel like leaving.
yet i feel like leaving, cos i can learn how to survive without family and good friends. :)

Camera, mp3, speaker

2009-09-13T20:21:00.004+08:00

Yay, i bought 3 things in the IT fair today.
haha, samsung ST 550 the side is gold, can take self shot (see the woman in the picture!!!) and they gave a freebie mp3 (which i NEEDED!!!)( i took red! cos no pink D:) and many more things!!!
and i bought the cutsie pink speaker.
i have to explain how satisfied i am bcos it has been months since i shopped. really.

TMR CHALET, BLAST MUSIC BABY!!!
DANCE DANCE DANCE, HAVE FUN!!!!! :)

im excited, bcos its my 1st time organising a chalet tgt with est and simin ^^
hope it will be a BLAST!!!!!

20TH

2009-09-12T23:36:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday XK!
hahaha, weird.
okay anw, hope u enjoy ur day and the face smashed into your face.
(okay i realised that there is this huge mistake above LOLOLOL, its your face smashed into the cake. i typed that when i was drowsy OKAY)
lol.

CHALET IN 2 DAYS!
tmr IT FAIR + DANCE + BUGIS :)
tired and drowsy, nights.

Tons of fats for you?

2009-09-12T03:23:00.000+08:00

im hungry again :(

2009-09-12T02:32:00.000+08:00

http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=1&p=8&v=240

WATCH

Pain is everywhere

2009-09-11T18:59:00.007+08:00

Teenager : have energy & time, but no money
Working life: have energy & money, but no time
Elderly: have time & money, no energy.

L-O-L -.-

on another note,
my left arm is aching to the extreme
i cant even push a button, the muscle will pull so badly.
:(

my left big toe has a cut on it. and it seem so swollen :(

my left ankle looks red, like its sprained. and it hurts to move it :(

everything is on my left.
unlucky streak :(

my heart hurts.
my eyes are swollen
but my mind is so exhausted.

i feel like i have no strength to do anything.
i pushed myself too much this time.

i feel like im being used.
i feel like im being so dumb
i feel like im an asshole
i feel like im disappointing EVERYONE
i feel like i cant talk to anyone

All passed,

2009-09-11T01:38:00.004+08:00

but i dont feel happy.
not because im not satisfied with my results,
but there are other matters which are overwhelming me rather than results

No sub papers, thats really a huge relief.
:)

i can go and play without any worries now.

sometimes the more you want something to happen, the more it will go against you.
i have learnt to loosen up,
not taking control.

i have been slping for 5-6hrs per day
and like i sleep in the morning and wake up in the early afternn
something is rly wrong with my mind.
it just cant stop thinking.

What do you think?

2009-09-09T23:36:00.003+08:00

Its a lot of hard work just to organise a chalet.
im wondering if i am to organize a super big event, i will faint.
lololol.

okay, everything is gng to be settled.
cant wait! our fruit of labour ^ ^

Night Cycling NOWWWWW.

I'm so lazy to use the com

2009-09-08T19:04:00.006+08:00

Yea, i'v been busy again.
LOL, i spent monday by Kbox-ing and chalet-ing :)
And i spent today by going to school and gng for ayam penyet!
yumyum, i satisfied my craving! lolol.
Thanks claudia ^ ^

Tmr i will be free, like finally for a day. i wonder what will i be doing.
Thursday will be baking with Liyi and co? not cfm yet.
Friday dance plus movie with claudia,night Buddhist class :)
Saturday, nth to do yet, Sunday Dance class :)
Monday and tuesday Chalet!!! booked alr XD
i think tmr i will be spending my day with esther or smth, to do the guestlist and food list.
wonder if minmin is free ^ ^

sigh, i love holidays. L-O-V-E-I-T.
I love my friends so much <333333 (let me twit a lil)
ENJOY PEOPLE!
life's great (y)!

18 days to Beijing trip.
after today's briefing, im kinda stoked.
i have to wash my own laundry when im thr, fyi. :S
Im nt in singapore from 26th sept -17 oct, lol must keep emphasizing.
my departure flight number is SQ 802, 8:40am, terminal 3
my arrival flight number is SQ 805, 10:15pm, idk what terminal. LOL
Nt bad eh my school, take singapore airlines siolz

anyway, tell me if you wan anything there. like call me or when im online in Beijing. ^^

99 times

2009-09-06T12:58:00.002+08:00

For every 99 times
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you werent lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
Im getting out tonight
And youre not invited

So nice the sonnnnnnnnggggg
dance later! :)

awesome, i wan to go to many places in singapore this holiday!!!

edit:
AHHHH
IM CRAVING FOR AYAM PENYET
CLAUDIA, this is all ur fault
LOLOLOLOL

OMG, hungryyyyyyyy.
im gng to satisfy my craving by this week. M-U-S-T.

T-I-R-E-D

2009-09-05T16:33:00.002+08:00

To the T, to the I, to the R, to the E, to the D.

SUPER.

my right ear is kinda deafened by yesterday's auction
ugh, i have to see a doctor ltr.

i nearly fainted halfway.
super scary.
i think im sick.
my flu is back, yo.
welcome back homie! -.-

I feel like its been years since i went out and play.
but actually its only...4days.
okay its sounds long.
CHALET!!!!!!!

yumyum!

2009-09-03T02:23:00.001+08:00

Macaroni CHEESE

HEHEHE THIS IS MY FAVORITE SUPPER EVER SINCE I FELL IN LOVE WIV IT 5 YRS AGO.

Bagus ah.

2009-09-02T20:20:00.004+08:00

omg. my life is upside down now.
i treat the night as day, the day as night.
LOL
i return home only at dawn, and leave my house only at night.
interesting life i have.
hahahahaha, and it seems like im disconnected from the cyber world for so long
it feels like it.
teehee, life is great when u know what u'r doing is what u like to do.

my life is like 7am reach home, slp til 6pm or 7pm, bathe and eat, go out and play til 7am!
HAHAHA

ytd woke up at 7pm then esther and simin texted me like 6 times.
lol, sorry!
then i bathed and all, went down to j8 for dinner wiv them
ate pizzahut, had HTHT.
long time since we talked like that. im glad everything is back to normal, really.
what i cherish is real friendship, real feelings.
after that went to find regina, she also MIA quite long.
then we sat at the playground and HTHT again!
til like 12mn, we walked to the mrt and i went to serangoon, the rest went home.
met fabian then we 2 stoned at the bus stop. LOL
that was like 1230am alr.
wait for jiahao to come down, and my sis to come down.
we went to mac and eat and talk.
til like 3 plus in the morning!
we were super bored alr, so we walked to kovan lan shop.
play lan from 4.30 to 630am.
WAHLAU I NEARLY PUKED.
the radiation too high i think. everytime i go lanshop i feel like puking.
left4dead is damn disgusting, cs v fun!
hahaha, okay we ate breakfast at serangoon then we headed home.
i slept from 8.15am till 7pm ^ ^
my head is spinning , shit :(

on a sidetrack, im reading "bad childhood, good life"
its about how to blossom and thrive in spite of an unhappy childhood.
so meaningful for me.
:)

may be organising a chalet :)

How it feels to be satisfied with life

2009-08-30T20:28:00.002+08:00

yay!
my days are passing faster and faster
perharps im jus enjoying myself by doing things that i like.
i love to help out at the temple ^ ^
so fun. hahaha!
im sounding like a homey girl.
but i like it. i kinda like this change of myself.
things are simpler, meaningful and happy!
everything im doing now makes sense and people around me always bring laughter to my life
i always laugh like mad. hahahah
had dance just now, choreo was fun ^ ^
anyway, im jus dedicating my life to things that i enjoy.
im not gng to force myself to do things that are against my will.
:)

i really wish people around me can be genuinely happy for life, and not having short term happiness.

我们都在学习

2009-08-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

以他人乐而乐,
以他人悠而悠.
心乐最重要。

YAY

2009-08-27T17:29:00.005+08:00

i finally have the time to sit down and blog a proper post and take off my old nail polish and re-do it nicely.
sighhhh, such a nice relief and relaxing time
tsktsktsk
teeheehehehehehehehehehe.
anyway, tmr im gng for my facial and massage
and im gng to do many many things that i wanted to do.
HEHE, fun time fun time fun time!!!

life has been hectic
i have been sleeping at 4am and waking up at 715am
i jus cant turn back my human clock to normal sleeping time
now its the holidays and i think it will get worse
maybe i will slp at 6am daily and wake up at 2/3pm
hahahaha. but i like the nightlife
so quiet and peaceful with nobody disturbing you
:)

i paid up for the china trip alr
anyway, i dont feel like gng anymore
but no choice, its my cds.
effed up.
like sian la, no partner.
tsktsktsk.
i go thr emo, be loner.
hahahahahaha.
okay i shant think so much, maybe i just might have fun for the 22 days trip ^ ^

i wana spice up my life and im currently racking my brain hard for ideas.
i may jus come up with many by night time.
im an owl people, jus call me at 12 midnight-6am out, i will be there if there is fun and exciting things to do.
CALL ME OUT. hhahahahaha, sorry i cant contain my excitement of being so free and burden-less.
shiokahahahahaahahahahah.
kbox soon MINMIN, dancing soon CLAUDIA, outing soon CLIQUE.
why am i so happy?
LOLOL
i'm gng off to rack my brains.
tatatata!

IM DAMN HAPPY
LISTENING TO SONGS LIKE LADY GAGA, FERGIE, RIHANNA, NE-YO.
SIAO.

7 cool weeks.
wow.

2009-08-26T21:02:00.001+08:00

I SCREWED ESSGRA
nd i got a feeling im gng to screw MEDSOC tmr.

my notes is about 100 double sided pages thick.
HAHAHA

im dont rmb anything after 6hrs of revision today

2009-08-25T15:55:00.006+08:00

im damn unhealthy
i havent been eating proper meals for damn long
i keep eating pau or watever or ice milo jus for a meal
tsk.
i shall weigh myself later.

i got no appetite!

YAY I LOST 1.5KG FOR DOING NOTHING.
L-O-L

anyway, i wan to do smth interesting.
and my mum is gng to cut my fringe for me
im gng to look like a kuku!!!
no la, is i ask her to cut.

can exams finish faster...

EDITED:
I CONCLUDE MACBOOK DOESNT SUCK
BECOS I LEFT IT ON FOR 24HRS.
and it hasnt explode.

My perfect lover. who is so hard to find. SIGH

2009-08-24T21:49:00.006+08:00

I suddenly have the urge to blog about what kind of perfect lover i am looking for.
Lol
this is the result from studying endlessly
okay anyway, this post is damn random.
i got nth to do, and i just wana share okay!

1) He must be tall. like 180 and above. I AM SERIOUS. because i wear heels im already 170.

2) His level of mentality must be as of the same or higher than mine.

3) He must be passionate.

4) He must be caring and has a heart of gold (very important).

5) He must be funny, at least entertain me. must be able to communicate with me! dont be a block wood.

6) He must not be an ah beng who smokes, drinks, scold vulgarities, hang out with bad influences often.

7) He must be polite and gentlemanly to every girls. of course especially nice towards me, duh. LOL.

8) He must have a healthy lifestyle, like exercising.

9) OF COURSE THE V IMPT POINT IS, cannot hit a girl. not even once.

10) It is the best if he is someone who can accompany me whenever im feeling down or whenever i needed him. especially in the middle of the night or something, because im an owl. LOL.

i think i give 10 criterias 1st, because it already seems like im describing a fairytale prince.
I DID NOT MENTION THE MONEY/STATUS HE HAS OKAY. i dont care about those.
I think i can forget about getting in love anyhow soon. HAHAHAHA.

Happy 17th!

2009-08-24T00:11:00.001+08:00

my good lil brother chose a good place for his birthday party.
BUT ANYWAY, HAPPY 17TH :)
lol!
i shant elaborate.
ANYWAY
my marketing exams will be commencing tmr.
i wonder how it will be
i bet i will leave before the time is up.

2009-08-21T16:45:00.001+08:00

I think my maid has a better life than me
ever seen a maid sit while cooking?
ugh.

i still left with tons of revision for medsoc.
_l_

I must remember

2009-08-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

i had my 1st free and exciting lorry ride home
damn windy, damn fun, damn thrilling, i nearly fell down.
sometimes a glamourous, expensive, classy sports car cant even give you that simple happiness.
I must remind myself that i have the power in me.

i hate studying

OOOOVOOOO

2009-08-18T01:32:00.002+08:00

this is me when im sneezing and fabian being crazy and singing

he is still singing

LOL look at my bored face and the extremely freaking assed up dota lover.

SIgh

2009-08-17T14:27:00.002+08:00

I dont have the mood to study at all.
Marketing, Media and Society, Essential Graphics.
BLABLABLA.

Im not HAPPY with my marketing coursework grade.
not happy at all.

Don't Know Why

2009-08-15T19:30:00.001+08:00

Im so into blogging at this moment
just wana share my thoughts.
Im currently obsessed with soft music.
Genres like jazz and country
totally suits my mood these days

Its meaningless,

2009-08-15T19:10:00.005+08:00

To pursue materials that will go out of fashion in no time
To pursue meaningless things that you cant bring with you when u'r dead
To waste your whole life working so hard just for the status and money u'r after for
To find that you have gained nothing when u'r on u'r deathbed
To give up family ties and friendships just for gaining fame and money
To regret when u'r dying, with no one at your side, only with a cold big mansion, piles of cash everywhere, deadless materials
To learn how to let go of the short-term happiness and pursue a long-term happiness
To learn how to cherish your loved ones before they'r gone
Its true, you cant bring cash with you when you'r dead, also your loved ones.
But dont you want your loved ones with you, esp when you'r growing old, dying, sick or even perfectly healthy?
Its never too late to learn :)

I want to do something for the world, i want to motivate people, i want to set a good example, i want to be able to help people, especially the unfortunate.

It sucks to be standing back, being helpless, looking at what the world is morphing into.

Cleared Sem 1, now for the exams.

2009-08-14T13:43:00.003+08:00

Finally, all my assignments and presentations are D-O-N-E.
i was so relieved yesterday.
my energy totally drained out.
i napped from 5pm til 10.30pm.
then i woke up to have my "supper"
then i went to sleep again at 1am.
all the way til 12.30pm this afternoon.
it-has-been-super-long-since-i-enjoyed-my-sleep-already.
Im only left with 3 exam papers to sit for (which i clearly havent been able to start on,shit)
i wonder how will i score.
jus giv me a C and above and im pleased.
i dont aim high, because i think the time spend on revision is so damn little.
i dont wana disappoint myself so much :)

oh and i have the last china connection class for sem 1 tmr!!!!
we are having test la -.-
nvm, i jus pass can alr!

im a sloth when it comes to school work.
& IM HOME ALONE ON THE WEEKENDS!!!!

teehee, i wana do something interesting for my life ^ ^

Plans

2009-08-11T15:19:00.006+08:00

I have so much plans for my holidays

im going to make full use of it

im not gng to rot my days like what i did in the past

im gng to carry out all my plans

i hope i can do it

im so determined

did i mention how much i hate media and society? :(

Taken from someone's blog:

follow your dreams

wherever they lead,

don't be distracted by

less worthy needs...

shelter them, nourish them,

help them to grow,

let your heart hold them

down deep where dreams go.

be faithful, be loyal,

then all your life through,

the dreams that you follow

will keep coming true.

Fun Fun Fun

2009-08-10T23:34:00.003+08:00

I have no mood to even start on the presentation slides tonight
i just feel like sleeping or just surfing the net the whole night
i dont even know what to write about

afternoon was fun
we danced like mad
practiced isolation for so long!
fun eh, but my body aching!
hahaha
i was so happy and tired
sigh, life was good at that time
after that, v sian
go simei do project/adverts
in the end stupid security guard chase us out of the condo pool's toilet
idiot, so we dint manage to complete
sigh.

holidays soon :)

Singapore's bday is my rest day

2009-08-10T00:07:00.006+08:00

okay wow, i just didnt check my mail for a day and its spammed by facebook.

42 emails. take up my lappy's memory space.

anyway, today had been a lazy day for me.

finally a rest day (Y)

i was on the verge of collapsing from exhaustion

i woke up at 1230pm!!! super happy, 1st time in many weeks since i had this kind of good sleep.

and i ate good food today.

had astons for lunch and steamboat for dinner

i had a chance to catch up wiv simin and joshua!! (L)

hehe, i spilled some beans

hahaha.

tmr is back to my busy life, the whole day is planned.

sian.

it sucks to be an adult with responsibilities.

i wana be a baby now.

tmr morning going out to buy my formal wear

afternoon = practice

evening = do presentation slides and all till night

oh beijing trip is confirm, im setting off on the 26th sept to 17th oct.

sian, i have to get my passport photos done by friday too.

did i mention? im down with flu (Y)

Hectic, who can take it?

2009-08-08T13:49:00.003+08:00

i feel like im gng to collapse soon

i slept at 4.30 am on a friday "morning" and woke up at 730am on friday morning.

then i went to school and had class frm 9-6pm

i reach home, bathed and eat and went to my buddhist class til 1 plus in the morning.

then i reach home at 2am.

i finally fell asleep at 230am.

i woke up at 8 am because my f*** neighbour was renovating their house

then i went to sleep at 10am after they stop for awhile

i was then disrupted again at 12noon

then i went back to sleep again

1230pm, i woke up and rush like mad.

and i found out my lower lip cracked and suddenly bleed.

i reached school at 130pm

and im here now blogging , feeling so tired.

i still have to sit here until 4pm and listen to boring china lesson.

then at 4pm, i have to go to my cousin's house to meet them and go to my aunt's house for gathering , and i think i will last till the early morning again

I feel so weak, like there is no strength to carry my body around anymore

my head is spinning, migraine is killing

can i slow down my hectic life? the answer is : No, i need to be responsible.

i shall see how long my body can take this life.

Recorder

2009-08-07T15:29:00.000+08:00

Burdens after burdens

press rewind.

Still Tired

2009-08-06T17:20:00.005+08:00

i think i want to stop blogging at this space temp.

so tired and all.

Jet Black

2009-08-05T00:17:00.004+08:00

Thanks Nava for handing up my homework!! (TWICE!!)
& mc!!
hehehehe.
anyway, my hair is jet black now.
i love it!
hahahaha, cool :)
I dyed my hair wiv Claudia. omg it was a super-tiresome-job
lol, we had blood rush and all. damn funny!
i think we made the toilet filled wiv hair dye all over :/
sorry!
tmr is a fun day!
Thursday is another fun day!
:D

(waiting for claudia to send me the photos :D )

Hives. i dont like you at all.

2009-08-03T19:14:00.005+08:00

I skipped school today, and i dont have to present my gdf assignment 3, so fortunate!
i dint skipped school for no reason OKAY.
I had hives, also known as feng mo in chinese (not so jialat one)for the fourth time this year
omg, congrats to me la
everytime its so itchy that i feel like dying
and calamine lotion is always my savior
next time anyone has it (CHOY!), ask me, i know the remedy LOL.
i seriously need to do something about my weak stomach and skin
and its the tom yam seafood noodles i ate yesterday!! :(
ugh, it wasnt fresh enough for my tummy to take it
lol.. sian:(
im advised to ....... ABSTAIN FROM SEAFOOD FOR ABOUT 2-3MTHS.

edited:
im DONE wiv j1 iwa2 :)
im left with essgra project and marketing presentation only.
SHIOK !!! :D
Why do people stereotype mass comm people as people who only speak damn gd english and dont need to do other work?
so wrong , so wrong.
i will gladly pass you all my assignments and projects :)

Exactly how long?

2009-08-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

I am so happy that im having my last torturing gdf class tmr.
i am so happy that i have no school on thursday
i am so happy that gdf and essgra lecture are cancelled on tuesday, leaving me time to chill
i am so happy that claudia and me learnt awesome stuff tgt today
i am so happy that im finally left wiv 1 assignment, 1 project and 1 presentation only
i am so happy that the semester is coming to an end!
i am so happy that my 7 weeks of holiday is getting nearer and nearer
i am so happy that i ate astons at suntec today
i am so happy that im leaving Singapore soon :)
i am so happy that people are starting to know who i really am and accepting me for who i am
i am so happy that claudia understands what i meant
i am so happy that i am out-of-the-drama scene
i am so happy that im able to make my lil sister happy
i am so happy that i am finally satisfied with my gdf work , no matter what others say
i am so happy that my mum loves me so much
i am so happy that i have no words left

i wonder how long this will last.

Mess wiv my head

2009-08-01T11:03:00.005+08:00

Im in China Connections class now

there is a new module for us to take!

yay!

haha apparently im suppose to go China only in March next yr

now we have the chance to choose to go on the 13th sept to the 4th of oct (22 days) AND next yr march(25 days) holiday too

Total : 47days at china. WOW.

hahaha!

I LIKE TO TRAVEL.

edited/

super busy woman here yo.

lol

i went to catch harry potter despite assignments waiting for me :S

and it kinda disappoint me.

i din see hermione kissing ron

i din see much of the actions of the students this time round

its all dark and scary , not like harry potter at all

sigh

I REALISED ACTLY DRACO QUITE GD LOOKING IN HIS SUIT.

i think i got fetish for guys in suit. rly.. i will drool.

and today i got free treat for everything

movie ticket, popcorns, drink, Jack's Place steak.

oohhh :)

long time since someone treated me that nice.

and, i have to finish my gdf by tonight :/

im excited for Beijing trip. idk why, but i wana get out of singapore asap!

Nice photo below

DAMN HOT.....!?! ron looks hot, emma looks like she belongs to the fire family!!!!! omg.

this is not in harry potter. it was a cut out scene, sadly.

OH DID I MENTION?!?!

I FUCKING GOT MY FIRST WARNING LETTER FROM TEMASEK POLY.

SIAN.

Im feeling Good.

2009-07-31T20:06:00.004+08:00

Crabs are good (Y)

Results are good (Y)

Happy girl for a day, finally.

Friends come and go.

We should all treasure those who are sticking thru thick and thin.

I heart those who i still contact often ever since so long ago.

& I will treasure those who will be here for me even 30 ,40,50 and so much more years to come.

Making my way through the crowds.

Life is so freaking unfair at times

2009-07-30T00:37:00.006+08:00

i cut myself unknowingly
pathetic i know
i realized i have not been taking care of my ownself
like pampering myself
its been long
stupid school. fuck it.

i realized another thing.
when im struggling so much with my life, there are SO MANY people coming to me, telling me things about relationship. or even talking about sucide or dropping out of sch?!
like cannot be able to be with her, have a crush on someone but dont dare to confess, or like being homosexual or whatever shit ass.
and ppl want to drop out of school because of minor things. WTFFFFF.
sometimes i get so frustrated with these kind of people, i feel like killing all of them
like fuck please, being surrounded by dumb ppl seriously makes me feel so !@$@#!
the thing im pondering today is...
why do they have so much time in their lives to even care about all these kind of small little things that can be worried about next time?
i seriously think that a mature person now should be thinking about their goals in life like focusing on their work now instead of all these useless things.
you can say im being a nerd or a no life person, but when u grow up you will understand what i mean.
& the thing is (this i must emphasize), i have to freaking juggle my home problems, my stupid studies, social problems, my health, taking care of my little sister and mum, ensuring they wont get hurt or whatever.

sigh, whatever la. im often sick of my life.
the feeling is so tiring.
unless you are gng through the same thing as me, you wont really understand how i feel.
but i think j understands.
she kinda like goes through my type of life.
hardship, sufferings, tortures.
why is it both of us out of so many fucking millions of people?
Dads are screwing our lives so badly.
fuck it.
how i wish we dont need guys sperms to give birth.

just now.. when i cycled past my grandad's house, i looked inside.
i saw my uncle sitting there using the computer.
my heart ached.
its been so long since i saw my relatives...
esp my grandad.
about 1 yr i can say.
then my uncle who always doted on me since i was a kid.
i din see him for 1 yr too...
always whenever he has things to give, like presents, he will always give me instead of the rest of my cousins or sisters.
he passed me joey yung concert tickets before, he gave me a schoolbag when i was younger, he taught me about buddhism, he gave my presents whenever he has it.
my grandad, although im not close to him as much as my grandmum.. who already passed on.. i still respect him alot. because he is the one who gave birth to my wonderful mum, raising her and all. he is the one who always be there whenever my mum needed help.
i missed all my relatives.
i need something to fall back on.
now its just an empty black space which will suck me in if i fall back.
i have to be strong independently.
i have to overcome all shit things that will happen to me.
i hate it when i cant even visit my relatives openly.
why must you cause so much trouble?
seriously, now i take back my words.
i dont believe love can dissolve hatred.

Comments Disabled. i dont like people to comment on my negative BUT FACTUAL thoughts.
because they dont even understand.

blah mood

2009-07-28T16:20:00.005+08:00

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.

i like this song. ma ma miaaaaaa :)

i went to school for 50 mins just now.
waste my time.
sigh, and i keep procrastinate on all my assignments.
exams coming, i havent study anything.
i just dont see any point.
lol, its like we havent finish all the assignments and projects and the tutors are nagging us to study for exams.
like hello, do you think we have 48 hours a day?

bored shit.
why cant i do things i really like?
sigh, why are some ppl so lucky and fortunate to have what they really want.

blahz.

Rain everyday, i dont mind.

2009-07-27T20:34:00.004+08:00

It rained & poured. Lovely!

I need my ____________ soon, or else i will die.

i miss simin, bella, liyi many many.

their crazy laughters and funny actions.

HAHA, always make me laugh.

& although i just met claudia yesterday, i miss gossiping with her already.

I THINK I V V V V V V V NO LIFE.

counting down: 2 weeks 6 days to study week.

Today's medsoc presentation sucks big time.

i hate formal wears. SO TROUBLESOME.

now im left with marketing presentation, journalism iwa2, gdf assignment 3 and essgra grp project.

AFTER THAT IM DONE, left exams only :S

im living in self-denial.

How was your past?

2009-07-26T19:18:00.009+08:00

sigh! because i cant scan the pics into my lappy, then i have to photobooth it :S

This was taken last year, during chinese new year. i missed cny! i missed it this year,was at bangkok. and i think im gng to miss it again next year, because i will be overseas i guess.

that was me during my 16th bday, sigh i miss the times. im getting old. my sis is CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

i finally blogged :)

& i miss all my relatives :/

I WANA EAT SHAKER FRIES.

& JLN KAYU PRATA

& THAI EXPRESS TOMYAM NOODLES

& SUBWAY COOKIES

& STARBUCKS HOT CHOCOLATE

sigh, cravings. sounds like im pregnant, guaguaaaaaaaaa. no way!

Looking at more and more failures in relationship, makes me ponder about any successful ones that can last forever.

having to counsel and advice people close to me about their failed "love game" makes me feel so sad that people are taking love as a game , talk is cheap, so shut up if you cant fulfill the thing you promised.

That's a sure thing why im not attached till i find a guy that is one the same/higher level of maturity than me who can accept me fully for who i truly am.

tata, i wish for everyone close to me to be happy everyday.

Please recover from any heartbreaks.

Looking forward

2009-07-22T20:04:00.004+08:00

my 5 yr old sis is a freaking camwhore. she can come to my lappy and use my photobooth on her own!!!

siao peh

MY HUSBAND ON THE MAGAZINE COVER, HOW CAN I NOT BUY IT?!?!?!!?

my new maid is here.

her name is nui nui?

idk sia.

weird sia.

shes from myanmar & i have to re-adapt to have a maid agn

sigh

im so glad someone is here to help out wiv the house chores

because its piling up

and im busy and lazy and tired to even do anything

hahahaha

anywayz, school is boring.

what's new?

HAHAHA

okay i kinda forgt what happened today.

amnesia.

5 weeks+ to REAL VACATION (so long!)

2009-07-21T21:30:00.004+08:00

i need a break asap.

woah, the workload is engulfing me into this huge whirl

other than my usual course assignments/projects/exams/pop quizzes, i still have my china class assignment/presentation slides/notes to do.

congratulations to me!

lucky this china thingy is till March next year.

or else i will die man seriously.

am not going to force myself to take more cds any soon.

now im finally left with:

- marketing project

- media and society presentation

- Essential graphic project

- GDF assignment 3

- Journalism individual assignment 2

- marketing presentation

- marketing exams

- essential graphic exams

- media and society exams

- china connection's presentation

(more to come from china connection class)

please dont talk about the deadlines/due dates (its so freaking near , its scary to even listen to it)

actually, i thought i left a few.

now i look at it, im so wrong :/

BUT PEOPLE!!!!! hahahaha, im actually coping with the workload.

im just feeling lazy.

like everyday doing work.

I.WANT.TO.PLAY.

Obsessive.

2009-07-20T17:52:00.003+08:00

Lee Min Ho is the perfect man i am looking for.

HAHA, okay enough.

sorry, why am i obsessed with him?

okay, im super tired.

shall head for a nap now. TATAS.

Bsm, hope u will love school after time passes :)

Satisfied yo!

2009-07-19T19:45:00.004+08:00

Today is a good day.

LOL

i did what i always wanted to do

and and, im satisfied! :)

back to boring school tmr.

who cares, like 4 more stupid weeks.

gdluck bsm, 1st day of sch tmr! :P

This is a day without much worries

2009-07-18T23:13:00.003+08:00

YAY.

i finally know how to fill do time plan for marketing.

HOORAY X 92347918264P91734

lawlz.

okay anyway, thanks munsyi :P

LOL

and and and!!!!! tmr is an exciting day.

im looking forward to it!! :)

my mum ask me not to worry so much about assignments and all

my dad agrees

and, they told me that results doesnt matter much

they think that getting straight A's isnt something important

like if i cant do it, and i dont like to study because of that A grade, i shouldnt force myself

im so enlightened i tell you

i have learnt how to let go and relax

have you, gan chiong spiders?

LAWL

i must learn to slow down and live happier life.

my life is too hectic

wassup with those competitive grades of A's and all?

we'r all gng to die anyway

those certificates are just papers that are gng to burn in the future :)

Here are some inspiring quotes in in life :

Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it.

Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it

Hatred darkens life; love illumines it.

To live a pure unselfish life, one must count nothing as one’s own in the midst of abundance.

The talent for being happy is appreciating and liking what you have, instead of what you don’t have.

losing grip

2009-07-16T14:15:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

stop expecting me to become what you want me to be.

i just want to be bad, who are you to stop me.

masscomm student = no life.

2009-07-15T14:06:00.002+08:00

FUCK, PLEASE SEE MY TIMETABLE AND CRY FOR ME.

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

I PLAN AND ORGANIZE I ALSO SCARED.

hais :(

Signing off,

LIFELESS MASSCOMM STUDENT.

edited/

Claudia Nicole says: (12:56:37 AM)

i also got chased by monkey before (this is the whole main point of this edited part)

Melody says: (12:56:40 AM)

MONKEY

Melody says: (12:56:41 AM)

WTF

Claudia Nicole says: (12:56:41 AM)

damn scary

Melody says: (12:56:45 AM)

I LAUGHING LIKE BANANA ALR

Claudia Nicole says: (12:56:52 AM)

shut up lah

Claudia Nicole says: (12:56:53 AM)

hhah

Melody says: (12:56:56 AM)

HAHAHAHA

Melody says: (12:56:58 AM)

DAMN FUNNY OK

this girl made my night man. LOL

5 more stress weeks of school

2009-07-13T17:55:00.003+08:00

Im in love with soft, jazz kinda music

i feel so stressed up these days

i will usually take a nap when i head back home from school in the afternn, but i was so stressed till i cant fall asleep

my mind was thinking about these things:

1) Essgra Assignment (due on friday, but i have done it!!! finally)

2)Media and Society Project (due TODAY, have to send to my friend)

3)Journalism GWA3 (due on wed) (omg, still waiting for another grpmate to get his ass online)

4)GDF 1hr pop quiz tmr. (havent touch any _l_)

5) today GDF have a new assignment (due next monday -.-)

im so tired.

im having 5 hours of sleep per day.

my migraine is back :(

Dont read if you HATE to see my rantings

2009-07-12T12:09:00.005+08:00

Just how many times must i cry then you will understand how i feel?

imagine having 5-6 hrs of sleep everyday and still have to rush assignments and projects.

why is my life so hectic?

all i want is happiness.

simple and easy.

you made it so difficult for me.

i just want to stop everything and look around me.

look at those things i have never take note about

those beautiful clouds, singing birds, green and tall trees, all that i missed out as i rush to school everyday

how i wish im living a kampung life now

this is moving so fast that i cannot catch my breath and my chest hurts

its just that im keeping mum about everything

im just taking burdens that i cannot handle and just living the life i dont even like at all

do you know how many attempts i have tried to escape from all these?

do you know how tired i am inside, im worn out by all these

im torn and tattered inside

its all jumbled up and its so complex right now, when its suppose to be simple

what do you expect me to say anymore?

everyone just easily say "jiayou, you can do it"

"come on, you are strong, you can do it for sure"

"you'r so determined, and for your bright future you shudnt give up"

its so much easier said than done

its not only school that i have to juggle

i have my own personal problems at home

when the world seems to go against you, you dont even know who is the real person who truely cares for you

i feel so tired, but i keep hanging on, going on, just because i feel that it is wrong to give up just like that

but one day, when i truely cant take it anymore, and i tried my best, i will let go of everything

including my life.

this is not a sucidal note, i just feel so tired of all these drama, all these assignments that are piling up like fuck, all the masks everyone is wearing everyday, having to fake my true self everywhere i go because no one seems to be able to accept me for who i really am, tired is not even a word i would use, its beyond words.

the feeling is all bundled so tightly in my chest, so readily to explode.

im just keeping it under control.

soon it may be my turn to visit a psychiatrist.

i dont even know how to pen down what im feeling right now, its so uncomfortable and i feel like puking all my burdens and troubles out

i feel like sleeping but im always disturbed, im always getting up in the middle of the night

every hour i will be waking up to nothing, then falling back to sleep agn.

how nice, my sleep is always interrupt, how am i suppose to function well?

i think i may have a serious mental illness

complexity turning into a disease.

I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees,

and fed my houseguests bark and leaves,

and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Medsoc stupid project

2009-07-11T20:49:00.002+08:00

OH SHIT @#%#$^!$@%$%&!!!

i totally... FORGOT ABOUT MEDSOC PROJECT.

and the shittiest part is that i have to send my part of the project to my group mate by TMR.

AND THE THING IS IM GNG OUT WIV CLIQUE TMR.

oh shit to the max.

i dont know how to start on the project :S:S:S:S:S:S

im f dead.

UGH!!!!! headache.

i went to do facebook quiz:

The Life Path 3 indicates that you entered this plane with a strong sense of creativity and with wonderful communication skills. Achievement for you most likely comes through engaging your ingenious expression. A truly gifted 3 possesses the most exceptional innovative skills, normally in the verbal realm, writing, speaking, acting, or similar endeavors. Here we are apt to find the entertainers of the world, bright, effervescent, sparkling people with very optimistic attitudes. The bright side of this path stresses harmony, beauty and pleasures; of sharing your inventive talents with the world. Capturing your capability in creative self-expression is the highest level of attainment for this life path.

Life is generally lived to the fullest, often without much worry about tomorrow. You are not very good at handling money because of a general lack of concern about it. You spend it when you have it and don´t when you don´t

damn coolz.

Reminiscence

2009-07-09T18:30:00.001+08:00

Im just digging our prom'08 photos!

Prom committee! :)

This is after prom, at cheeky choc:)

this is when the night ended :/

our fucking cool band!

FUCKING COOL STAGE

this is before everything started :)

See the mad ass in purple dress? thats me.

i dint even know this photo existed till Abhi posted it up. SO UNGLAM.

but everything is kept in a small part of my mind, never be erase.

Treasure

2009-07-08T23:16:00.003+08:00

It all comes back in a circle.

Secondary School friends are your lifetime friends.

No, im not kidding at all.

Wait till you are at the age of 30 or older, see which friend you keep in touch with often.

Back to assignments.

I'm left with

marketing journals, (this friday)

essgra assignment 1, (next friday)

marketing project,(next next friday)

journalism GWA 3,( next wed)

GDF assignment 3, (4 more mondays)

media and society project,(next next mon)

Journalism IWA 2 (next next wed)

To people who are planning to enrol in mass comm, think more than THREE TIMES.

can you just give me time to catch my breath?

regrets usually cant get pass my pride,

but this time it won.

no, im not being negative.

im just feeling tired and wanted to rant.

in any case, i still HAVE TO get back to reality in a couple of hours...

WAHLAUZ

2009-07-07T12:46:00.002+08:00

I woke up with 7 missed calls

okay , then i received news that i have to self quarantine for 7 days. til next monday

because my PICC class has one confirm h1n1 case.

so like siao, i dont need to go to sch this whole week.

1st reaction was:" WAH DIE, cfm cannot catch up"

but seriously, i dont know whether im happy or sad about this news.

hahahaha

im still waiting for my teachers to call me back.

Clarissa was send home despite her telling the Mr D that she wasnt at class last sat.

Same here, i wasnt there.

so lets see what they say to me.

If there is 7 days quarantine = finally sufficient rest for me and for me to study at home ( which i highly doubt so)

but,

it also means not catching up with school work and dont know what is going on in school.

OH fuck.... :(

idk what to do already.

Sexayyyyeeee

2009-07-05T22:53:00.003+08:00

Town today.

2 months plus nvr step into town.

the feeling... shiok.

cos i finally regain back my ownself.

every mon-fri : home to sch, sch to home. or sch to tamp mall then home.

boring life.

Nvm, all is worth it for the education which will bring me a bright future.

Determination ftw :)

BSM is my only partner where i can tell her everything i feel and think about, and fuckkkkk.. i told her my weirdest dream. DAMN FUNNY.

we were eating in a korean restaurant and she suddenly burst out laughing.

damn hilarious, I CANNOT TAKE IT ALSO!

okay school tmr, positive attitude everyday, im gng to smile and be happy like how i am outside of sch.

HAPPY LIFE TIL THE END!!! :D

(I WILL MINIMIZE OR EVEN RESTRICT ANY NEGATIVE POST FROM NOW ON)

Respect

2009-07-04T18:21:00.003+08:00

I feel so much better.

Friday nights are the best :D

Thanks Simin, Zhehao, Nava and Fabian

All of your encouragement did help.

3 down, 1 to go. i didnt expect that i can do it so fast.

Im going to smile and be happy everyday! :)

My Shifu's favourite song.

Damn meaningful.

用起伏的背影挡住哭泣的心
有些故事不必说给每个人听
许多眼睛看的太浅太近
错过我没被看见那个自己

用简单的言语解开超载的心
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听
你的热泪比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

用简单的言语解开超载的心
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听
你的热泪比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

时间可以磨去我的棱角
有些坚持却永远磨不掉
请容许我小小的骄傲
因为有你这样的依靠

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂
等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

WHHHHHYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-03T17:05:00.004+08:00

I always feel like an outcast, an extra, a person who don't belong to Temasek Polytechnic cum CMM.

i always feel satisfied with my work

then after looking at those around me, i feel like a loser.

now with my poster done, i dont even have a single bit of confidence in me

i just dont know how to face my course and everyday happily.

i just wan my holidays to come faster

i jus hope i can graduate faster

why am i such a loser ?

i cant do anything well.

I FEEL SO TIRED AND EVERYTHING. LIKE EVERYTHING I DO IS NT GD ENOUGH.

UGH i fucking hate myself now.

Omg, why are there so many pests on Earth?!

2009-06-30T17:42:00.007+08:00

Do you know that you are extremely detestable?

yes you, im speaking of you.

stop PRETENDING.

please.

i hate your acting * character.

so much that im tolerating my anger.

dont act like you dont know you'r acting * to guys.

(if you feel guilty reading my blog/or even if you dont read my blog bt ppl tell u and u feel guilty, means you ARE guilty)

And you, stop taking me for a substitution.

i dont like the feeling. sometimes i feel like breaking down.

do you know i treat u like my another close friend?

you are disappointing me.

Please think who was the one who always accompany u, console u, cheer u up, joke wiv u, and watever.

People ALWAYS take things for granted, until when it's gone.... then they regret.

how funny.

i feel so sad. suddenly it became black and white again.

i know too much.

hahaha SO CUTE THE LOLLIPOP. and its super colorful, great for cheering me up.

i was testing my new printer, and dont mind the messy background -.-

i chanced upon once of my PICC grp member's blog, and found out that she withdrew from poly.

sad, lost one member.

hais, teenagers nowadays are really daring.

Transformerz

2009-06-30T00:00:00.002+08:00

Hell, to think that i caught Transformers.

1st time in my life i watch this kinda action-packed movie.

i always thought the robots all those damn lame and boring.

BUT OMG,

ITS DAMN NICE OKAY.

EVERYONE SHOULD GO WATCH IT :)

okay i was psycho-ed by nava. so we (nava,sijia,aloy,thomas,jin?!,huzaifah,me) went.

& i skipped dinner because of it.

now im having supper!!!!!

i rly cant live without food.

I LOVE TO EAT!

*beware of fats*

COLOURS

2009-06-28T17:28:00.004+08:00

MY HUSBAND BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION ON 21/6/2009

HIS ACTUAL BIRTHDAY 22/6/2009

생일 축하합니다! (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!)

OMG I WANA DIE, IM MELTING. 22 YRS OLD EH :D

HOTNESS. CUTENESS. TALLNESS.FITNESS. MELTING IN PROCESS..

MY MOTHER IN LAW!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA

zhehao told me that i should post a korean version of birthday song to him.

당신 생일 축하합니다
당신 생일 축하합니다
생일 축하 호 분
당신 생일 축하합니다

SEE. i am so devoted. HAHAHA

okay,

HAHA I REALISED I AM STARTING TO LIKE VIOLET.
BUT I STILL LOVE PINK.
AND GOLD.
AND BROWN.
AND WHITE.
AND BLACK.
AND RED.
AND YELLOW.
AND MANY MANY MORE!!!!!!!

MY LIFE IS TURNING SO COLOURFUL!
IM SUDDENLY CRAZY WITH COLOURS.
PERHARPS ITS THE COURSE I AM IN.
DUNO, DONT CARE.

ME LOVE MYSELFZ X INFINITY.

im crazy today. which is GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD! :D

and i realised i have to save alot of money for SO MANY THINGS COMING!!! hahahahha

shiok X infinity minus 1. HAHAHAHA.

Oh please

2009-06-27T18:53:00.004+08:00

This is me April 2009

This is me June 2008

This is me TODAY

Any difference?

I THINK FATTER SIA. HAHAHAHAHA

Alright,
I realised that Courts have quite a few cute guys.

HAHAHA.

okay la, nt bad, nt average u know.

Im feeling good these days.

hehe, like good mood.

AND today's PICC i totally focused during class.

omgzzz, im becoming a good girl :)

today is my friend's 21st birthday!

gng to party later.

DEPENDS IF THERE IS GNG TO BE PHOTOS.

because im shy ^ ^

hahahahaha.

OH Michael Jackson died. idk what to say. i like some of his songs, but im nt quite affected by it. maybe becauseeeeeee im scared of his face :S

Actually i have many things to blog about but i forgot what happened -.-

OH OH OH THE MOST IMPT THING IS...

1 WEEK OF SCH IS OVER!!!!!

7 MORE WEEKZ TO SELF-STUDY WEEK

8 MORE WEEKS TO EXAMS.

10 MORE WEEKS TO 6 WEEKS VACATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D

im craving for carl's junior biggest burger.

What's what?

2009-06-24T15:53:00.005+08:00

From love to like to hate.
Its so drastic.
Who could take it?
Definitely not me.
Your chance has come and gone.

Life in school is just cold and empty for me
Grades are appalling, disgusting, disappointing
Imagine a girl, sitting alone, looking like she's deep in thoughts, so mysterious and all.
How life can change someone so much
Skipping lectures seems normal to me
Especially u can return to a place called home, where u know u can hide youself away from reality temporarily
Knowing that there will be someone so familiar, reaching out to you with her warm hands and a genuine smile, caring for you like no one else could
What else matters when that happens?
You just want to be cradled to sleep, reminiscing the time when you were a baby
Listening to heartless rumours, untrue gossips all about you, it just feel so wrong
You want some time to yourself and to people who truely deeply care for you.
Time passed, We aged, Who learnt? Human, complicated mammals.

Oops, did i press on ur love button accidentally?
Im sorry..

(No photos til i have the actual mood to do so)

Raining heart

2009-06-22T20:58:00.002+08:00

first day of school is okay la.
just fine, although i was quite disappointed with my medsoc and gdf results.
but whatever la, over already.
just study harder next time. hahaha.
i feel so sleepy, i wana sleep so badly.

Rewind

2009-06-21T21:57:00.001+08:00

i feel like sleeping my day away tmr...

Take me away to a secret place where no one can find me.

Hiding in a safer place

2009-06-21T00:09:00.003+08:00

I feel like digging a hole and hide myself in it until i find my inner peace.

Broke :(

2009-06-19T17:49:00.005+08:00

money makes MY WORLD. hahahahaha im being so superficial now.

but tell me, who doesnt love money? as in normal people k.

HAIZXZX.
I am so broke that i need to rob a bank now

to think that i still ordered 5 bottles of OPI nail polish.

AHHHH.

im so freaking dead.

and i havent update my wardrobe :(

i think im a pathetic freaking loserish teen

i cant stand being stuck in a teen's body!

i have to re-wear my clothes to school, i dont like it. i love new clothes, new everythingz.

hahaha, fuck i feel so pathetic now. i am pathetic. LAWLZ.

fmlz.

i still have to go for my hair cut. eyebrow trimming. AND OF COURSE I NEED TO SHOP

fuck there is this colour dressing day , which falls on this coming tuesday-.-

for cmm ppl. AH FOOKZ. i hope i can successfully shop for colourful clothings being broke.

hmmz. im going to start work soon. i need cash. i think i spend money like water.

so i have to support myself for my materialistic things.

tell me whyzzzzzz.

any kind soul willing to donate some cash into my posb savings acc?

like maybe a few hundred. that will be sufficient for one shopping trip i guess.

ALTHOUGH IT WILL BE BETTER IF U JUS APPLY ONE CREDIT CARD FOR ME BUT YOU PAY FOR THE BILLS. HAHAHAHA (dreaming :/)

LOL, im thinking too much :S

Im so bored, i woke up at 3pm. The thing is i slept at 3am.

I dont like to sleep so long, like when i wake up i feel that i have very little time to do my things.

But i always sleep so much -.-

Today i feel overwhelmed by so many different emotions.

Happy, yet unhappy. Satisfied, yet unsatisfied. Energetic, yet lazy. i dont know what i really want.

Suddenly i felt an urge to do all the things i always wanted to do, yet i didnt have a chance to do it or i dont know how to carry out my plans.

But after a long period of thinking, i decided to withdraw my plan and hold on to it first.

At this age, i feel that even if i do my best, it is a hidden talent and it wont be as glamorous if i am to do it in the near future. At least till i graduate and get my Diploma.

Sometimes i feel that the future seems to hold so many surprises and gifts for me, that i feel so excited and determined to hang on to the things i dont really enjoy but will benefit me next time.

i seemed to think a lot these days. Too many things are taking up my memory space, my brain is functioning to the side where it is holding so much expectations of myself and my future that it is beginning to belittle my present and past.

i swear i should stop thinking first, although the little drive from it will actually help me to set a positive thinking on my studies now.

i think time is passing too slowly, i wish it could hasten up.

but stop at the time when im at my prime, let me shine let me be indulge in the powerful richness that i always wanted to feel since young.

Like i said, i think way too much.

Complexity is my second name.

I RANTED SO MUCH. its just things that came up to me when im writing this post.

It is not planned.

Walk between the lines

2009-06-19T00:29:00.003+08:00

zhehao says: (12:28:10 AM)

what think i doing now? wait ah let me thing for awhile.

zhehao says: (12:28:11 AM)

hmmm

zhehao says: (12:28:24 AM)

nah im seek. i cant sick for anythink to do now.

zhehao says: (12:28:26 AM)

Melody says: (12:28:29 AM)

NNB

Melody says: (12:28:30 AM)

LOL

Melody says: (12:28:32 AM)

STUPID GUY

Melody says: (12:28:33 AM)

LOL

zhehao says: (12:28:36 AM)

hahahahaa

zhehao says: (12:28:43 AM)

following u u stupid girl!

zhehao says: (12:28:45 AM)

hahahaa:D

whut. jus becos i mixed up think and thing and seek and sick. AHHHH.

oh and i slacked my day through

i seriously dont look forward to school :(

3 more fun and happy days, i better cherish them.

ugh, u just dont know how much i hate going to school....

i love my current friends and i dont see the need to know more.

i rather have close and trustworthy friends than to have a bunch of acquaintances

but watever, no more drama when sch starts for me.

this 3 years is going to fly by.

& i'll do some serious things that i REALLY love.

BSM (Y)

2009-06-17T19:33:00.003+08:00

Claudia howled in the mrt just now. HAHAHA.

and u know what.... we both realise we have so many similarities that we cant find any differences in our thinking and actions and watever la!

like funnnnny.

today has been fun, but dont know why both of use were like damn tired.

like feverish yet wana shop yet no mood, yet stubborn and excited for SOMETHING COMING UP SOON!! haha, we are planning far ahead man :D

me like to do things wiv her cos she's like my twin like we both enjoy the same things!

alright, school is starting... i am so not looking forward. okay i do go to school, but what really excites me is the SCHOOL VACATION. hahahahahaha.

school? lol , the place... funny.

alright, waiting for Claudia and we'r skyping :)

Forget

2009-06-16T05:50:00.006+08:00

Lee min ho Lee min ho Lee min ho.
I'm mad alr.
this is the 2nd time im gng crazy over a HOT ACTOR!!!
okay it will take time for it to fade away and wake up to reality.
when school starts, thats for sure. I will have no time for it.
MY LIFE REVOLVES AROUND KDRAMA AND SLEEPING.
im lifeless now.
hahahaha. but i feel contented.
Maybe my life should be like that.
i feel that its stressless.

edited: 12.45pm

oh did i mention.... i slept at 10pm last night and woke up at 3am in the morning and i cant fall asleep after that. haha, im awake for the day already.

AND......

i have successfully persuade my parents to go Korea during my dec holidays.

YES!!!!!!!! THIS IS THE BEST NEWS EVER. HAAHHAHAAHHAHAHA.

edited: 1pm

ah fuck. all the burdens are back. Im like starting on my assignments.

fuck!!!!! medsoc gives me stress. and pimples. ughhhhh. i rly hate studying -.-

it seems like.. i just dont know how to explain this seriously.

if you know what i mean, then good for you.

back to reality, 1500 words.

edited: 3pm

YAY!!!!!!!!! i finished my 1500 words essay in 2 hours (which i am not really confident of, because im not sure whether my method of writing is good :S)

but watever, shall edit it when i have more ideas. LOL im gng out to ENJOY 1ST!!!! :D

AH!

2009-06-14T06:56:00.002+08:00

Bad habits are hard to kick

If i nvr see the daylight, i cant fall asleep.

and im hook to boys over flowers.

so im dead

I'm Hook to You

2009-06-13T23:52:00.002+08:00

BBQ at Buangkok

The Quartz Condo

Like very little units are taken up because its like damn new.

my cousin's cousins birthday.

L's GF is fun. Because she likes Lee Min Ho too!!!

Damn cute la he. me lurbzx him worzx. HAHA

okay the condo is overall damn nice and cosy. but the house abit small, perfect for a couple, nt a family i guess :S

I wanna finish Boys Over Flowers. Me heartzxz the show. LOL

My goal in life: Korean Husband. HAHAHA :)

Thanks Bella . HAHA for the wish -.-

SALIVATING, MY EYECANDIES:)

2009-06-11T16:49:00.004+08:00

MIKE HE , STILL HOT AS EVER

LEE MIN HO KOREAN HOT GUY

AHH!!!!!!!!! HOT BODE HOT BODE ALERT !

yum yum ASIAN GUYS.

no more ang mo. lol, ang mo are so over.

oh.. stop. stop drooling.

oh and apparently, someone is my eyeSHIT. not candy. ALOT OF DIFFERENCE.

No school, Great FUN

2009-06-10T22:31:00.004+08:00

i think i like this picture alot. HAHAHA

can you say TWINS for the day. we look cute, and im psychic!

me love gold lashes!

ALL THE SINGLE LADIES IN THE CLUBBBBBBBB

ST JAMES LADIES PRIORITY NIGHT:)

Underage party at St James ytd night.

hahaha, cheap thrills all around

stop it! like lame. thats only 1 sec of thrill. are u all satisfied by that?! hahaha retards

and ah lians and bengs.. seriously! omgggg they need some real life.

clubbing is fun, dancing is really my lifezzzz :)

minus the disgusting cheap thrills, it will be better :P

kerwin and friends were there, eden and friends were there plus ahbi claudia and me!

fun ttm. GRINDING. HAHAHHA, right claudia ? ^ ^

and i think i'm really psychic. really.

dont play with my mind, no dont, really.

& i really enjoyed myself ytd. it has been a while since i let myself go freely.

WHOO. St James music is da sex. minus the not so nice ones :P

Photos will be up soon, til BSM sends me :)

Tennis today.

sweat like mad. HATE THE WEATHER. gives me rashes :(

i hate it.

and like... haha i love to chill wiv my cool peoplez.

notes that i hate gng to school a lot.

Mind Shut

2009-06-09T01:19:00.000+08:00

Why do i feel that i have lesser and lesser things to say these days?

forget about it i aint caring

2009-06-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

why does it keeps repeating.

seriously i think this evil feeling is so exaggerated in modern society

yet so many of them harbor the thought of it and always being led by it blindly.

oh whatever, i have to announce that the 2nd great wall of china is half done.

i need to go my shifu there frequently, where i can find peace, happiness and simplicity.

Try me, you cant feel any

2009-06-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

I am going to build the 2nd Great wall of China around me.

Eye candies, they'll do your eyes good :)

2009-06-04T20:08:00.001+08:00

i swear my eyes were filled with candies just now.

about 10 or more blonde guys walked into Mcdonalds and bought mcflurry each

cute ttm. my heart stopped beating

HAHA okay thats exagerrating but the blonde guys part is real okay.

cutezxzxz

out of my life

2009-06-03T19:46:00.000+08:00

fake fake fake all i can say about u is fake

Tell Me

2009-06-03T00:37:00.002+08:00

How can anyone be such a fake person ?

i dont even know how to do it.

being a poseur doesn't makes you popular, it makes you infamous.

Perharps that person enjoys to be one. i guess? Needs some maturing.

oh ! my medsoc exam is overrrrrrrr.

O-V-E-R!!!! :)

i think i can pass, hopefully! :D

journalism next.

eudora's house tmr. hope our plan of studying really works out. since there are like 5 or 6 people going :/

MEDSOCCCCCCCCC

2009-06-01T16:46:00.001+08:00

I hereby announce that I'm going crazy with all the media and society notes in my brain.

EXAMS

2009-05-31T11:49:00.003+08:00

whut

i have only attended 6 weeks of school and there is exams next week

i just hope that i can tackle the qns easily!!!!

lucky for my course, we only have 2 papers to sit for and its 1 hr for each paper :)

media&society and journalism!!

and the truth is, i havent start on anything. i better start by today!

my blog is getting mundane, no photos and all.

im not in the mood , nor do i have the time to camwhore.

life is really busyyyyyyy for poly students.

suck shit (christie!!!)

ugh, holiday isnt like holiday. i have 5 assignments to do.

and all is due during JULYYYYYY.

wth :S

poly isnt as fun as what u guys think it is!

BETRAYAL, MIND YOUR KARMA

2009-05-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

i never felt so BETRAYED before.

perth no more, china omg.

2009-05-26T17:27:00.003+08:00

Today for idk what reason, mass comm people wore sch uni for lecture.

uhm, i find it weird :S

like lol, reminiscing?

but i didnt join in, some did.

haha, okay as long as they are happy :)

random,

i dont wana become u!!!!!!!

find myself back find myself back find myself back find myself back find myself back find myself back find myself back find myself back find myself back find myself back find myself back

I WILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL DO IT.

i skipped skating AGAIN. shit la i feel damn bad, andrew (senior) asked me twice whether im gng :S

shit shit shit, super guilty.

I SHALL GO ON FRI. haha, if i feel like gng la :S

since exams next week. HAHAHA.

today's lectures are BORING.

omg mass comm ppl are able to go to vietnam or perth la.

wth.. im gng to china next yr's march, then australia's trip also fall on that month.

FUCK!!! ah fuck , my life damn suay. ALWAYS LIKE THAT ONE,ALWAYS.

always have this kinda clash thingy, then i will end up wiv the lousy choice.

FMLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

why like that

always play with my life. WTH

but maybe i wana sign up for the vietnam thingy, see how la.

i wana take CDS!!! LIKE FUN SIA.

oh and finally i saw liyuan at sch's bus stop after 6 weeks of school :S

damn crazy la, like same poly but no chance to meet.

lijie and zhehao came to tp!

COMPLAINED ALOT.

np and sp big la BIG LAAAAAAA. sry lor, tp smallest lor. LOL

but our western food nice! :)

k random, bye.

NO SKATINGGGGG.

2009-05-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

You have been through so much, that it’s hard to trust someone again.

sometimes i feel so hard to trust anyone.

LIFE IS WEIRDDD

ah! exams are coming, bloody hellllllzzzzzzz.

no skating for this week. UGHHHHH !

essgra skill test will be one big failure for me,awesome.